Thursday, October 12, 2006

Becoming a mother

My life changed when I became a mother in ways that I never expectedAll my life I knew I would have children.

When the time came, I took the birthing classes and studied the manuals diligently; researched and followed along on; read What to Expect When You’re Expecting; and compared notes with a friend who was due the same week as me.

I was all set for labor and delivery.


I was totally unprepared for everything that would happen after I came home from the hospital.

No amount of reading or talking to family or friends could have prepared me for becoming a mother. You just don’t know what you don’t know.

I imagined I would be the same old me, doing the same old stuff, just add a baby. Uhm, no. I barely remembered the same old me and had no time to entertain the same old stuff. My life changed overnight.

The definition of MotherMorphosisI had begun my MotherMorphosis, an intense period of personal, professional, emotional, spiritual, and of course physical change.

I remember three things about my son’s first well baby visit at the pediatrician.

  1. the scheduler telling me I was brave because I agreed to the 7:00 a.m. slot (I assumed it would be better to get it taken care of before work)

  2. the side eye from the nurse when I bonked my baby’s head on the infant scale (as if I didn’t already feel bad enough that it made him cry)

  3. realizing the pediatrician wasn’t asking about my symptoms or issues: it was all about the baby

Indeed, it is all about the baby.

Since becoming a mother, my children have become my “why.” They are the reason I get up in the morning (often too early), the reason I go to work every day, the reason I do almost everything I do. They are my motivation, my inspiration, and my revelation: it is because of them that I know the true love of God. I imagine the love I have for them is just like the love that God has for me.

Note: My facebook page about MotherMorphosis is here

But no one will see it

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